Saturday, January 31, 2009

Last Post

Two followers on my Shadowjack site. Other than that, I might have 3 (maybe a half dozen if I include family members) people in the world are vaguely interested in what I do. There's no reason to keep these blogs up.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Depression and My Art

I have serious problems with depression and have had them since at least HS. Every now and then, it creeps up on me and overwhelms me. The despair becomes incredibly intense and it's almost more than I can bear.

That said, I probably won't give up on my art and music. However, seeing as how few people seem to care about what I do, I don't know that I have much incentive to share it with anyone any longer.

The few of you that are interested, thanks. I hope you continue to visit these blogs and twitter. I can't make any promises about new news on my progress though. I doubt I'll be going back to deviantart so don't look for my art there. If there was more interest, I'd probably feel differently but this is the way things are.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I quit

At best my art and design is mediocre, it worst it's amateurish, irrelevant shit. I clearly don't have enough talent, skill, determination... whatever. I'm sick of trying to convince myself I'm an artist. I wanted to do work that was inspiring. It's not. I've been wasting my time for the last 20+ years. I quit.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

The Fall of Man/Groovfuct Album Cover

I did the album artwork last night. It's almost exactly what I saw in my dream. I'm not sure I'm going to use it though. It's kind of a big ol' bummer, very realistic, especially in light of world events. The narrative of the album goes in a more sci-fi direction, though it starts out realistically. I just don't know.